I am overwhelmed at the moment. With life. With not having a computer that will connect to our wireless network and effectively rendering me useless in many ways (banking, bill paying, blogging). With trying to finally get our house organized and finish moving in to it - we still have boxes we haven't unpacked from the move almost two years ago. Why? Because we closed on the house when I was in labor with my son And then he was in the NICU for over 100 days. And then I was tired. And then he learned how to walk.
We have also started a new therapy for the kid that is very time consuming. As it turns out - surprise - he has sensory modulation issues. The official term used to get insurance to pay for therapy is Sensory Integration Dysfunction. We have started working with a therapist at the Astra Foundation and are using a technique called Floortime. It takes a lot to implement these strategies, but I am already seeing improvement in his focus and ability to attend to a task. Today he played with a toy for almost half an hour when before starting this therapy he might have been able to play with something for five minutes. So, no matter how tired I am, it is worth it.
I am also trying to finish some contract work and am nearing the end and that final push to get it all done. It might kill me. Or make me insane. But it will get done. It has to. I am learning that once your are the mama - it doesn't matter what it is that has to happen - or how impossible it is to do it - you are the one who has to get it done. Because you are the mama.
But, the lack of internet, the intensive therapy, and the contract work...well...they all combine to make it very difficult to write. I will be happy when I can get back to trying to write every day. But now I need to go work on the contract work....