I don't even know where to begin. I haven't written in so long, and I miss it, but it is hard to get started. I don't want this to turn into a *my kid's second birthday is coming up and I am freaking out and therapy is killing me and our budget is stretched too tight and I have no idea how to live my life any more* rant, complaining, whining post. So that leaves me stuck. Because that is how I feel. Sort of lost. And like I am still 13 years old. I feel that things are less in control right now than when the little one decided to arrive so early. I keep thinking it will get easier, but it doesn't. So I guess life is just this hard. I wonder how other people do it. There must be something to it that I just don't know - some sort of secret to managing this life without feeling like my boat is going to capsize at any moment - and I want to know it. This is making me tired. I want it to be better, but can't figure out how to get there. So I am going to stop now because this is exactly what I didn't want to do...
I'm so sorry. I am frazzled with a full term child, no major issues. I can't imagine all the challenges you face every day. Just know that there are people out there thinking of your little family. You're not alone.
Posted by: Becci | October 11, 2006 at 10:35 PM
Do you have any parent support groups around you? I know in our area many of our families in EI join and it's a huge help- you need to have those rants!! Otherwise you'll explode :) Just wanted to let you know you're in my thoughts....
Posted by: Tracy | October 13, 2006 at 08:59 AM
I am so sorry that life is wearing you down so much right now. I hope you find some peace... and rant away girl, you need to get it all out so you have room for the 'good stuff'.
Sending a big hug your way, hang in there.
Posted by: soralis | October 13, 2006 at 01:21 PM
I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I know it's going to get better. Just hang in there and take care of yourself, too.
Posted by: toyfoto | October 15, 2006 at 08:11 AM
Your description of parenting a former micropreemie is spot on! I can relate.
Just know that you are not alone in the world of parenting former micropreemie's.
Jen, mom of Meghan, former 27 weeker, 725 grams
Posted by: Jen | October 15, 2006 at 01:38 PM
been thinking about you - sending a huge hug.
Posted by: amelia | October 17, 2006 at 08:06 PM
i wish there was something i could add that didn't sound like a big whopper of a cliche. just know there are people who haven't met you who have been touched by your graciousness. big hugs from odin and us.
Posted by: Eric C. Snowdeal III | October 24, 2006 at 09:47 PM
So sorry it's so hard for you right now. Do whatever helps, and if that means writing lots of "whining" posts, then so be it. Big hugs to you, A., and I really really hope that life will cut you a fantastic break sooner than soon.
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